Adam gave me a beautiful amethyst crystal a few weeks ago. I liked it, but I hadn't explored its energies until last night. Before then, the only thing that I knew was that it wanted me to be the only one who touches it. When he gave it to me, I brought it home, and soaked it in salt water overnight to clear its energy. Then it just waited upon my altar until I was moved to explore it.
Last night was the night. Alone in my house, I lit candles around my bedroom in the four directions, and set sacred space. Then I just held the crystal in various ways, exploring the interface between it and my body. The exploration culminated in my pleasuring myself with it. As I held the tip inside of me, it touched my sacred spot (G spot) in a very pleasurable way. The sexual energy arose and moved through my body.
I kept the image of the crystalline light entering me. It was not about fantasizing about a person, but about connecting with the infinite through the crystal. I think the crystal is a portal into the realms of the infinite, and as I become more comfortable with it, it will be a useful tool in the healing and expansion of my sexuality and a pathway to the divine.