Just Having Fun

Check out my post on The Quadishtu Experience. It's an excerpt from my book, Tales of a Sacred Prostitute. Enjoy!

What Joy!

I went in with a bit of trepidation, but it was SO MUCH FUN! I'm in a completely new space than I ever was before. I feel at choice for the first time. When I first started doing Tantric massage, I thought that I had to run energy with everyone, that I owed it to them. That burned me out, and then I slammed the door shut to protect myself. I wasn't available to anyone. Now I'm finding a middle ground. I can choose what I want to do. Some sessions I totally focused upon giving to the client, not involving my energy at all. Others, with clients that I knew and trusted, I allowed more give and take of energy. The important thing was that I got to choose in each situation. There were no assumptions of what I would or would not do. I ended the day feeling ecstatic and joyful.

This is good medicine for me.

Sacred Prostitute Party

It's almost time for my book release party -- the Sacred Prostitute Dress-Up and Dance Party. I've been choosing great sensual music for dancing, and getting all my dress-up clothes ready. I'm thinking black lace for myself . . .

It's going to be fun! Join me if you can. It's May 9, next Saturday night, in Oakland. Email me for directions.

Happy Beltane!

Today is Beltane, the half-way point between the spring equinox and the summer solstice. I’ve always had a soft spot for Beltane. Traditionally it was a wild time, where the peasants fucked in the fields to make the crops grow well. One could partner with whomever one wished, and any child that was conceived at Beltane was considered a child of the Goddess, and especially honored.

You can channel your sexual energy into any area of your life, bringing fertility into your work, your relationships, or even your garden. Dedicate your sexual energy to something, and watch it manifest!

Let's Just Have Fun!

I had a dramatic example the other day of how my attitude shapes my reality. Adam called me after a long absence from my life, well, long to me anyway. I wasn’t expecting that he would call me ever again. We agreed to get together to talk, and I found myself dreading the time. I just knew that it would be hard and that there would be a lot of processing.

I was talking to a friend a few hours before Adam was scheduled to arrive, and he had a great suggestion. “Why don’t you focus upon what you want instead of how hard it’s going to be?”

I started thinking – what do I want? I want to have fun, to laugh, to have a lot of orgasms. As I thought about that, I felt my energy lighten up. I started smiling.

When Adam called, I said to him, “Let’s just have fun, ok?” He agreed.

We still talked about the issues we have, but we did it in a very light-hearted way. We ended up feeling closer than we had in a long time.

I don’t know where it is going with him, but I do know that I want to keep having fun!